Skin

Everyone believes in a free country and that everyone is treated equally no matter where they are from, who they are and what their skin color is like. I would have to respectfully decline that. I live in a country where ppl are truly nice and they do treat everyone else nicely but at the end of the day I feel that no matter how things are it will still be a little different because of the color of my skin. We have seen it happen with black people, even after they were accepted they were not completely accepted in the sense that they still needed a few more years before things had become normal. If a respectable person of color was driving the car police offices would still stop that color to check it out. I am on the other hand brown and I feel that I am not taken to be as equal as a white person.

Well the thing is that I have tried to improve myself as much as possible to be more acceptable and be able to get the jobs and other things that I want in life. I have changed my outlook on things, i have changed my physical appearance many times to see which one gives off more positive energy, I have tried to become better at speaking, have an idea about different topics, be able to understand things in a better light and keep an open mind. But at the end of the day it is no use. I have tried to mole myself into a perfect person so as to be liked, treated equally and be able to do and feel the things that a normal white person is going through.

I have traveled the world and I have to say that people at first glance did not like it when I approached them for directions, or that I wanted to know about something. Because the first thing they looked at was my skin color, now i know that brown ppl dont have the best reputation in foreign countries especially the illegal ones. They destroyed the reputation and as a result the new generation have to deal with these problems. Now initially alot of the ppl i had met that i was illegally living in countries, desperately trying to get paper work and that my cover story was that I was a student and i was uneducated. But its exactly the opposite. It was not until I spoke english fluently and talk to them about about global affairs did they realize that they are not dealing with a two bit brown person. I am sorry to say that I even met some brown ppl who thought I was illegal.

I honestly dunno if there is anything else that is in my capacity to change so as to be more accepted as an equal that I already am doing. I am trying my best to fit in and it isnt helping. I feel frustrated at times that I am of the same qualification of another person but I am not chosen just cuz my skin color seems to be different.

Now i know alot of you may argue that no that does not go on. Maybe it just happens to me. I personally wanted to write this post cuz I needed to get it off my chest and also its something that has been affecting me alot recently.

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